I LOVE YOU

分手后 不可以做朋友 因为彼此曾经伤害过 分手后 不可以做敌人 因为彼此曾经深爱过 所以两个人成为了 世界上最熟悉的陌生人..."

LOL

Just now saw my facebok got this,what is your i dea lover? lol.. then.. funny answer came out..

-_-

Oh, you poor thing. You've been hurt, haven't you? Come, cry on my shoulder. My naked, naked shoulder. You are looking for a sensitive lover, someone who can spoon with you through the next episode of Sex And the City. You want someone that cares more about the 'after' part than the 'during' part. Also, you want someone who can stay awake for the 'after' part.

my girlish's birthday!! ESTHER & REGINA!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! =D

Two Birthday Girl.. =) Make a wish...

This morning woke up very early.. i'm seldom wake up so early like today. haha.. my hobbies is sleeping marh.. lol. We went for lunch together at town.. thought call you ask how your case le. But when you picked up my called what you asked me was like very common friends.. asked me why called you? got what thing? i suddenly felt very cold.. dont know why.. really cold..

6pm,waiting for my girlish at mrt.. hmmph.. so long worh.. lol. Saw tingting 1st there.. Yeah happy. haha.. hmmph.. We waiting for last person,That's Esther! wow.. haha.. she really late for about 2 hour and her reason is! MRT STUCK! omg! I really fainted le.. lol.. But i'm still feel very happy because long time no see them le.. We went Marina Bay to eat steamboat. Yeah we taken alot of pictures! Wait ting ting send me i will upload let you all see! =p I really cherish all my friends around me.. really love them! haha..

Regina's hair style changed! lol.. really cute and funny! hahahaha.. =p omg. later she come kill me. Esther still same blur queen.. Share present with tingting. Gave one ang pau for Esther.. one wallet for Regina.. saw them very happy i also felt happy.. =) haha.. haiz.. when i reached there,they all asked me why never bring boy friend together? lol.. i also never ask him come together.. stick at me whole day le.. i need to breath awhile le.

we went for movie after dinner.. wahh we watch Tatooies. REALLY SCARY LARH!! =x somemore i'm sleep alone! =x scary movie.. but i like. haha.. =p From 12.5opm - 2.25am. wahh long movie.. tired tired.. sleepy sleepy.. but i'm still felt happy with my friends.. because i not always spend my time with friends.. =)

after movie i called you.. hmmph.. i'm tired to say le.. all my feeling only feel sad.. feel sad because us.. i think i shouldnt continue like this le.. its time to stop le ba..

=(

Haiz.. received your messege that told me you had caught by police. i'm afraid,worry.. but cant do anything for you.. what can i do only pray in my heart hope that you will be fine..

went rent vcd to wacthed.. tried to talking with him.. but i'm failed again.. and i cried again.. lol.. funny.. why i got alot tears? why my tears like to drop out..? stupid..

=p

shopping.. karen and bOp ™.. we having dinner!! =p We act cute! haha.. =p playing pool pool pool.. listen to musics...

This noon when i just step out from my home's door. bOp ™ called me.. "where are you?" Haha.. omg.. that time i think die le lar.. i wanna going give you one suprise lei.. miss you le.. lol. So i told bOp ™ meet him up after go see you.. =p taken one long long bus from my home to your work place.. In bus,i thinking of alot of things.. whatever.. also only feel want to see you. when i saw you.. you grew up with smile,i'm felt happy also..

OMG.. haha.. i'm late to going meet bOp ™!! was late for 2 and half hour! wahaha.. omg.. he was make noise when he saw me. haha.. =p but he is very steady guy.. =) he also never angry.. we went walk walk to looking for my friends birthday's present. Esther and Rigina,is their birthday on 29th nov.. but we chat untill no more time to look for present.. LOL.. so i called up Tingting asked to share present with her.. =p really miss them.. my girlish..

Karen and tehao was meet us up after that. we went for dinner together. after dinner we went to walk walk,Tehao and bOp ™ are playing pool.. Me and karen felt sian so we go play touch games.. haha..

Karen asked us went Wisma Atria there to listen to musics.. wahh.. really nice.. =)

haiz..

When the 1st thing he step in.. He shout at me again.. Yea everytime like that. i'm used to it already.. But still will feel very upset,afraid,tired.. i'm trying calm down infront him.. just dont want quarrel with him.. But i cannot dont bother him,i think he will be beat me if i do like that.. lol.. I'm tired.. My heart trying to fly away le.. fly to far far away.. dont want let my heart hurt again.. its start bleeding again.. I'm also start feel very cold.

meow.. I miss you.. Do you hear me..? i start give up le.. really feel tired le..

badbadbad..

When woke up at morning i'm feel very good.. I take up my handphone beside me,i was saw messege from yours. Ya Good morning.. =)

but second messege was him,what he had send me is stress me and make feel down one messege,after that he called me,ya again.. all those things that i dont feel like to listen and think.. my day spoil like that..

i'm cried again.. he asked me is it i'm flu? LOL.. ya i told him,i'm flu.

Think of meet Robin up to join his company's activity for christmas day.. but no more mood to going out,feel very sian and down.. stress.. i'm sorry Robin.

I hang his called,after that never pick up his called. he email me and said sorry with me.. nah.. i dont want hear that. what had happened was already happened,said all these useless for me. All rubbish..

pictures today..

Meow.. Fat cat. Everyday going out from home confirm see this Meow.. LOL.. Meow again.. lol.. today keep saw meow.. so always thinking of you.. LOL..

picture today2

Yeah!! today all cute stuff. Haha.. =p the last picture is my new handphone assecerries. My Hello Kitty!!

ya

Guys always talk alot sweet words with girls.. but end of they will regret what had they said or promised,just try to make that girl to forget those thing. like bring the girl fly la.. told her how he miss her lar.. how he need her la.. fcuk off!!

guys..

He like to quarrel with me with all small things. Pick my small problem and scold at me.. never care of my feeling .. never.. okay.. now he said no need me le.. from now.. ya.. guys all like that.. all like that..

Sentosa!!

on the way going beach.. =) ya this is bOp ™ .. lol.. meet him up go tgt.. today sun very BIG! this is Deckson! just know him,very funny guy. haha.. keep talk cock and playing ball with me. this is Melvin! he like to kick volleyball! =x haha..

sunset le..

me and soowen.. sunset le.. so beautiful.. =) peaceful.. bOp ™ said stories for me.. haa.. =p i also start stonning there le..

on our way back..

wow! cool car! haha.. see these guys so interested.. LOL.. on our way going having dinner! yeah! ABC driving.. so afraid kena fine. wahaha.. left my vollyball on table. went to order food. yummy.. finally.. reach home.. take a act cute picture. yeah!! =p

dot dot dotzzz...

Reagan!! why u sad? lol.. told you just now.. human all fake, trying to laugh infront people, and trying to hide our sadness inside our heart. Just dont want our sadness bring unhappy feeling to others. i'm tried to cheers up people.. people happy because me.. but i dont know how to cheer up myself.. LOL.. okay.. i going beach le.. feel very sian also cant to anything. go sleep at beach ba. never sleep well last night.. woke up very early also this morning.. today felt, sad,dissapointed,tired and sian.. lol..

dissapointed..

I feel very dissapointed with you.. I hate people promise me something but then said he forgot.. and i purposely today no going beach because you told me you off today.. so i think of,ok i try to get time to accompany you. but in the end.. you totally forgot what you had told me. however, i also faster than your friends to asked you out.. i'm feel very sad now.. haiz.. dont want think alot le. sad sad sad.. lol.. Cannot blame you ba.. you are sick. so you are blur.. forget it.. forget it..

=x =x

Feel very sian now.. very bored larh.. =( cherrie wan go beach larh.. but they all train volleyball worh.. no time accompany me de.. ='( tomorrow early morning got competition for volleyball le.. i need to go support them.. =x siew fang i miss you worh.. later call you. haha.. but i'm feel happy for my girlish! Surumi! she finnally together with the guy that she like le.. they just start their relationship yesterday! hope they can maintain like now lor.. haiz.. love arh hard to say..

this is my life.. love no one.

天使..

« 天使的微笑..... 天使.. 天亮之前.. 我还在想念你.. 你一直在我的梦里出现..

我的伤心你总是视而不见.. 我不要童话结局这样改..

就算倒退一天.. 我都想要体验..

刹那间, 天使也学会,

不顾一切, 就为了他,

断了背上的翅膀跟随一声呼唤,

闭上了眼, 落入繁简,

天使也会为爱冒险, 又为爱眷恋,

眷恋他虔敬的双眼, 就在一瞬间,

天使学会 不再胆怯,

就算要毁灭背上的血, 侵透酝酿已久的思念,

就算苦苦追寻终究灰飞成幻灭.. 永远不能再飞,

不再害怕面对生命的绝对..

天使..

该停下来..

学会飞翔了..

my cherry!

Do nothing yesterday.. found this last year picture. hmmph.. ya curl hair. haha.. not bad. so i'm upload to my friendster also. lol.

cherry cherry.. very sweet worh.. i like eat cherry.. ops.! eat myself.. haha..

=x

He very unhappy right now. Yea just called me and talked with me with very bei song voice, See la,later i confirm he will be shout at me. come on.. i wont scare you again! i'm not a toy.

touching story..

有位男孩很爱女孩，把她当宝一样的捧在手里。 There is a boy who loves a girl very much, always treat her like a precious gem. 下雨时，男孩总是把伞尽量撑在女孩身上，而自己身上都湿了， 却笑的很甜，女孩很感动，也喜欢男孩这样的宠着她。 On rainy days, boy always shield the girl with the umbrella and he gets drenched himself, but yet he stills smiles very sweetly, girl is very touched and likes the way boy treats her. 那天，他们一起去散步回来，路过一个工地，突然一块碎石从上面掉了下来。 One day, after a stroll, they bypass a construction site, suddenly down came a stone. 男孩赶紧用身体抱住女孩，可突然间，男孩将女孩的身体背转过来，自己倒在了地上。 Boy quickly uses his body to hug girl, but suddenly, boy turns girl around and fell on the ground himself. 女孩重重的摔在他身上，而石块正好砸在女孩的额头，血慢慢地流了出来。 Girl falls heavily on boy, and stone hits girl’s forehead, blood came flowing down. 女孩哭着跑了回家，她真的很失望… Girl ran home crying, very disappointed… 男孩打了她好多次电话，她没接就把手机关了，把自己关在房间里痛哭。 Boy calls girl several times, but girl didn’t pick up and off the hp, locked herself in the room. 直到被敲门声惊醒，她妈妈告诉她，男孩被一根铁丁刺穿了肺部，失血过多离开了人世… Until she was alerted by the knocks on the door, her mum told her, boy was hit by a nail in the lungs, due to loss of blood, had left this world. 她疯了一样地跑去医院，男孩躺在白色的病床上。 Girl ran like crazy to the hospital, boy was lying on the white bed. 手里紧紧地握着手机，上面写的这样一条信息： In boy’s hand, held his hp with a message: ”亲爱的，当我看到地上的铁丁时，我已经没有办法为你挡住石头了。亲爱的，痛吗？” “Darling, when I saw the nail on the floor, I knew I was not able to protect you from the stone anymore. Darling, does it hurt?” 女孩抱着男孩的尸体痛哭着… Girl hugged the boy’s body and cry… Morale: 好好珍惜你爱的人，不要等失去后才来珍惜… Please treasure your beloved ones, do not wait till you lose it then cherish… isn't it touching? =)

I Won'T Cry.

Yummy - i won't cry i won't cry 就算爱不能再重来 游行的降落伞 飞过悲伤地带 让我有勇敢的答案 彩虹 离开了天空 还有你 像微风 轻轻说 未知的辽阔 有我 陪你走 i won't cry 就算他不会再回来 身边有你陪伴 交换拥抱温暖 让我有坚强的预感 爱情 失去联络 难免会 很心痛 深呼吸 最初的梦 我相信 会实现的 i won't cry 就算爱不能再重来 游行的降落伞 飞过悲伤地带 让我有勇敢的答案 把回忆收进大口袋 时间先替我保管 变成老婆婆的时候 它是最美的片段 i won't cry 就算爱不会再回来 游行的降落伞 飞过悲伤地带 远方有幸福在等待 i won't cry 就算爱不能再重来 身边有你陪伴 交换拥抱温暖 让我微笑勇敢去爱

haiz sick. =x

humph.. my asthma start attack again.. i'm feel very weak today.. hard to breath.. =x i'm hate this feeling! because everytime when it really attack me will bring me to death. last year i'm nearly die because of asthma. lol.. totally cannot breath! everytime it attack me i will be very scare. so last night i cant fall asleep. i afraid to fall asleep also,very scare i will die in my dream. haha.. so i'm kept woke up last night,give you one excuse to go out to breath at middle night because i'm really hard to breath,but i dont want to scare you. felt very uncomfortable..

But today you are very sleepy because didnt sleep well also. =p because when i'm kept woke up you also woke up by me. haha.. but still happy can spend my time with you. althought was very short. =) i dont care you will love me or not,because our relationship is so confused. maybe you are right,let people love you,but dont love him or her. Just waiting for shower with love.. lol..

haiz.. i feel very uncomfortable now la! go sleep awhile first,good night. =p is afternoon now ba, haha.. nevermind. =)

cherish..

cherish the simplest things around you , because it may not last ... =) cherish==cherrie!! =p

I'm back..

Just now i went to custom.. i'm called my parent and chat very long with my mother.. i miss them so much.. really hope that i can fly back their side right now.. think alot when i'm reached there.. should i go back? because when i came to singapore before i didnt bring anything come here.. only a few clothes.. so if i want go back.. i also can straight back like that.. but when i'm queue at custom.. you suddenly messege me.. (please come back,messege me when you come back..) that time i'm think.. okay i'm come back next year.. i will messege you next year.. haha..

But in the end.. i'm still come back.. because of you.. i'm back. bOp ™ was right,i'm a girl that giving out my love at all cost.. i wont regret when i do any decision.. althought ending will be not perfect that i hope now. but i know i got try my best le.. that's a lesson for me to learnt.. If ending is nice like me think now.. that's will be great..

music

listen to musics k.

my music

musics

Again..

He start like used again le.. he start cannot control himself.. Just now,he throw temper with me because of one small things.. he just shout at me. i'm so scare.. he never care of my feeling. just shout at me with words that very hurt me.. really hurt.. untill i think of tomorrow i straight back my hometown le..

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then i go down my home downstair, stand under rain and cried alone.. i'm felt very sad.. feel very lonely.. then i seat down on floor.. look at rain.. look at sky.. where is my way..? i'm lose my way.. where are you..? i cant see you.. i'm feel down.. and down.. my body was wet.. is tears..? or rain..? i dont know..

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just now talk with you trought msn.. saw you are sick.. heart pain.. i'm felt very uncomfortable.. and very moody.. my head very pain and giddy.. cant able type and talk with you also.. just looking at you..

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today is last day that i'm stay at singapore.. so.. tomorrow i need go back malaysia le.. i dont know i still will come back or not after i walk away from here.. but i'm thinking of you.. i'm promised you before.. ya.. but i'm really tired..

Cherrie..

A little gal who always got lost, Giving out her love @ all cost. Ending up with confusion & fury, She is no one else but Cherrie. by bOp ™

Christmas day coming!!

Christhmas day coming soon.. i feel very happy.. dont know why also.. haha.. i like christhmas day at singapore.. town will become sooo pretty and nice nice wor.. =p last year we went to KBox celebrated christhmas day.. very fun!! =D we changed our present with my friends.. yeah!! =D we singging,play.. very enjoyed. because at malaysia dont have celebrate christhmas day one. hmmph.. so i very enjoy christhmas day here..

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Althought very happy that time.. also something unhappy happened.. i broke up with my ex boy friend that we together around 5 month.. he is malaysian also.. but he only think of find a girl to married. not serious with me, because before that i just come here alone and no enough money to stay at here. i'm lend money from him.. then i promised him i will return him. he said if i married him then no need pay him. if not i must pay more than i lend from him. i really pissed of and felt very upset.. played by a guy again.. LOL.. he said i'm very pretty,cannot dragging too long for married with me. if not i will run away with others guy.

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At here,i wanna tell every guys,if a girl really love you, whatever happen also she will stay by your side. you ugly or no money.. girl will never care with all these. but! if you guys never trust a girl and everytime suspect she will be run away with others guy,althought she really very love you,she also will walk away from you. a girl need true love and trust. this is me.. others girl i dont know la. =p

maybe..

maybe i should cut down.. because i cant feel any love from you.. maybe i should be stronger.. because when i try to cherish someone.. that preson will never cherish me.. i'm confused with you..

i dont know what are you really thinking now..

your ex girl friend was view me.. she still love you..

she told you dont give up both of your relationship..

give her or both of you one more chance..

but,you told me.. your heart only got me le..

no more her.. i dont know.. i'm confused with us..

why my life so confusing? LOL.. this is fact for me to face..

love

you very afraid talk about love topic with me.. everyday u asked same question.. "when you love one person,will the person love you back?" why dont you ask yourself? when a girl love you,will you love her back? lol.. [Love] what is love, no one knows.. how it comes & how it goes... is it a friend? or is it some foes? well, it's all about feelings u feel the most!! by bOp ™

this mornig..

today i just changed my name at msn. got one old fren come disturb me. wow.. selang.. know him so long time he is still same type! *Eugene says: u muack me ar *~cherrie~ muackz.. says: .... *~cherrie~ muackz.. says: u wan ah? *Eugene says: wow u so sexy baby *Eugene says: cani *Eugene says: can i *Eugene says: u got webcam. *Eugene says: can show me yr sexy body *~cherrie~ muackz.. says: lol *~cherrie~ muackz.. says: siao *~cherrie~ muackz.. says: ur gf so pretty *Eugene says: u sexy ma! *~cherrie~ muackz.. says: ask her show u can le *~cherrie~ muackz.. says: ur gf not sexy mei? *Eugene says: u oso can show me ma *Eugene says: no lay *Eugene says: u more sexy *~cherrie~ muackz.. says: .... *~cherrie~ muackz.. says: u like sexy gal den still chasing ur gf 4 wat *~cherrie~ muackz.. says: anyway *~cherrie~ muackz.. says: cherish ur gf *~cherrie~ muackz.. says: k! *Eugene says: k *~cherrie~ muackz.. says: good! *Eugene says: show yr sexy body ley! ~cherrie~ muackz.. says: .... *~cherrie~ muackz.. says: kill u la Eugene is inviting you to start sending webcam. Do you want to Accept (Alt+C) or Decline (Alt+D) the invitation? You have declined the invitation to start sending webcam. *Eugene says: haha

me and you..

see.. left one star is you.. right one star.. is me.. =)

bye..

bye bye my heart.. lol..

tell me..

tell me..

ya tell me what should i do..? what i waiting for? waiting for your answer? lol.. do you love me? you really afraid to lose me? i keep asking myself.. lol.. because i also know you not long time only.. i dont know what are you really thinking about.. its ok.. love not count with time.. maybe i need to become a steel heart girl.. lol.. then like that wont hurt myself le.. but is keep hurt other person.. wanna try? hmm.. ok la maybe you just close yourself from this world.. lol.. =pPp

hmmph.. 19november07. 06.39pm

i just feel that,why i need continue dragging with him? he is very gang zhong now. ya.. lol.. he very afraid that i will leaving him now.. maybe he know something but just dont want say out. but i dont know.. i got no job now.. and my salary was less than him when i'm got working.. but very weird one is.. i'm always gave him money to use! suddenly i dont understand why like that? because everytime was me paid when we go for eating or buy something else. all i paid. ya i'm suddenly think of this things just now. dont know why also.. these day he also very stick me. i think was because of i always tried to contact you. then he start worried.

hmmph.. i'm very tired.. everyday doesnt sleep well.. wow a girl like this really useles la. so ugly if no sleep well. =x

(Muacks you stay happy for me...) this is you send for me one messenge.. =p sorry wor i'm post here. lol.. i will stay happy for you.. only for you.. =) your friendster is still same. really was your friends play your pc? lol.. anyway i dont want think so much le.. tired.. really or not.. i dont want too care already.. let all thing run with nature ba.. not mine then wont become mine.. if really is mine it will come itself.. =) okie.. i gotta to go. hungry.. no eating yet.. my weight drop already.. lol.. my hand fine already.. still a bit pain but no worse like yesterday le.. =)

crazy indians..

http://www.youtube.com/view_play_list?p=0A10E15E9733D4B5

goodbye..

you said goodbye with me.. with msn.. lol.. now i feel new goodbye that i havent try before.. yet i told myself i no more tears.. but my tears suddenly drop from my eyes just now.. i laugh at myself.. why i laugh..? i dont know!! do you know.. last night what i wrote.. was last year one story.. ya.. he treat me good. but you donno,after i meet you,i feel i'm still can love somone.. because i'm just feel myself i'm no more love in my heart. but i'm fall in love with you.

last two month.. he was beat me and hurt me infont of crowd. got 2 guys and one gal saved me.. ya they saved me.. my hand and my body all hurt. my heart also.. from that time.. i'm really afraid with him untill now. i'm alone here.. ya i'm alone here.. i thougth of run away from him! but you know? because of you i still stay at here! why? i dont know.. i just feel that i want together with you. but now.. something small ting happened.. i'm said sorry with you.. you cant receive.. then just like that.. said goodbye with me.. i long time never drop any tears.. you dont know.. because of you.. i'm cried and cried.. because of you.. i tried to leaving him.. but if like that i dont know where should i go.. i dont know you will still read my blog or not.. if you are still same decision like now.. i wont say goodbye to you.. i will go far far away that no people can find me anymore.. i think you know that palce.. because you tried to going that place before too.. lol.. you mean too alot to me... now you said goobye with me.. ... . . .....

bruise.. 1.43am. 19nov07.

i train volleyball untill both of my hand o chei.. its really pain.. but.. i will continue train it. this small pain.. hmmmph.. nothing much.. lol.. now both of my hand no more strength. haha.. funny.. heart tired.. body also tired.. all my friends said i cant play because i'm too small size to play it.. that's will hurt me. but anyway i not supposely to hurt myself. maybe i got one activity for me to drunk in it. because i just dont want return myself to life like used. go drink and club everyday to forget someone that hurt me so much.. use alcohol to drank myself.. after i'm drank.. still cried alone there.. lol.. stupid sia..

he told me.. when he 1st time meet me.. he felt that i'm a steel heart,cool blood girl.. no feeling with world.. what happened with outside i never care.. i live in my own world.. ya one year pass already.. i still can feel back that time of me.. very emo than now.. was he to bring me out from my own world.. bring me go know more friends.. helped me changed my job.. tell me what happened and what funny things everyday.. when i got any problem.. he always stay by my side.. just now he told me.. i'm changed,he felt happy with it,because i'm not like used very queit,dont want to talk with any person that i dont know, and no smile.. no laugh like nowaday..

but he also told me.. i look like still got alot things keep inside my heart.. ya.. how can i tell him that i fall in love with you? lol.. this morning i go see your friendster profile.. what i send for you.. you deleted.. that's fine.. i'm felt hurt.. why you so afraid people know we are together? that's alright,when i messenge you asked about it. you just reply me, (i dont know what are you talking about? what's thing i deleted? what's going on? i dont know what happened?) i thought i got send you told you was about your comment that i gave you,you had deleted, but you still asked me you dont know what you had deleted. if you are really care of me,you will call me immediatly and ask me what's going on. but you didnt do it. i just received 3 of your messenges. that let me felt you just act blur.. lol.. nevermind.. i'm alright..

i hate you

what i done for you.. do you know? ...i turn crazy again le.. i cant write out anything again.. only know.. this world sux!! i hate this world and ALL the guys in this world! got what fault am i?!

from now... . i no more heart.. where is my heart..? my heart already follow with you and run away.. lol.. stupid thing.. stupid love.. stupid me...

volleyball..

ya today i'm going train volleyball. untill my hand o chei! used i very scare voleyball when it drop infront me then i will run away 1st. lol... but now i just play just try it,dont care it will hit me or not. =x ya i train untill very tired. but feel happy.. because my frend said i very hardworking in it. =p when i play they keep shout,'good ball!!!' haha.. nvm.. no more pain.. my hand injuired is not a problem for me le.. =)

tired also.. my heart tired.. LOL.. i'm still feel myself very stupid.. when i back from beach.. i trying to messenge u.. then he saw it,he shout me infront our friends... and i cried infront our friends too.. what to do..? i go toilet and messenge to you.. i'm felt hurt and upset.. why? why we cannot really together? why we need to hurt each other? i love you.. will you love me back?i dont know.. ..

5.08am

wow.. until now no sleep yet. i tink i a bit siao. watch movie untill morning. lol.. i like this heart. so i send it for you. =) ____##########*________________________ __*##############______________________ __################_____________________ _##################_________**##*______ __##################_____*##########___ __##################___*#############__ ___#################*_###############*_ ____#############LuvUalways##########*_ ______###############################__ __________########################_____ ___________*####################=______ ____________*##################________ _____________*###############__________ _______________#############___________ ________________##########_____________ ________________=#######*______________ _________________######________________ __________________####_________________ __________________###__________________ ___________________#___________________

confuse..

humph.. i'm feel confuse now.. you keep telling me you want me. but what thing u do for it? nothing.. i feel very bad when you want meet me up but i cant make it sometime. i know u feel bad also.. but what to do? both of us dont dare to try. dont dare to try a new life.. althought we really love each other.. but donno what we dragging here? lol.. we both same very emo. same experiences and same hurted before. but whose never hurt before..? i'm a example.. tried and tried so many time, hurt and hurt too much time.. but i still waiting for it.. too many experiences make us very emo like now.. lol.. but maybe we got same thing want to try,that's u try to make me smile and i try to heal u with my smile.. donno,when i saw you smile,i also feel very happy.. =) you told me,i'm the only person that when i smile you also follow me smile together. lol..

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my parent and my friends always said me is a very emo girl. lol.. yea.. what to do..? who hurt me before,now all regreted and asked me go back with them. No. i wont go back with you. lol.. funny.. never cherish me before,make me become crazy and keep crying before,now? asked me go back with you? and told me you are regreted? give you one more chance? you dreaming.. almost one year already,i still hate you. cant forget everything you had done on my heart. together with you 4 years! you got cherish me? my time all spend for you! from what age i staying by your side? and i ran away from you then come singapore? why i dont wan go back? because i dont want to see you again. just dont want.

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i feel very comfortable now.. =) before that i always confuse,why? why you very afraid to promise me anything..? now then i know.. what are you afraid of.. all my fault.. was me said those things then you feel unsafe.. i said couple hard to staying together.. will be fight.. yea its true,u tried before.. i also tried before.. that's why we dont dare to try now.. we donno where we start and donno how is the end.. you go army soon.. i got told you many time before.. if i really love someone.. i will be waiting for him.. how long also i will be waiting for him.. untill he come back to stay with me.. =) now you only can promise me is you will stay your heart true with me.. same here.. =)

tired..

8.40 am now.. wow.. keep w0ke up from sleep.. cant sleep well.. all brain is you.. LOL.. useless.. what i'm doing all this all stupid. because wont have any go0d thing coming for me also.. only will give me more sadness.. my heart tired.. very tired....

cant sleep..

now is 3.11 am.. i still cannot sleep.. thinking of you.. just now.. you worried for me.. so you keep msn me and msgging me.. but when i received ur msn and msg,all he had saw and he start worried that i will go with you. lol.. funny.. he keep asking me that u like me is it? you court me is it? lol.. then he keep staying infont my pc. haha.. yea.. really funny.. God playing at me.. the guy that i like dont like me.. the guy i dont like keep stick with me.. ARGHHHH... i turn crazy soooonnn.. what you had told me i'm all keep in my heart. but yet all not true.. yea was me wrong.. was me donno how to cool down my heart.. i'm wrong.. stupid.. i blame myself.. never blame you.. i wont blame anyone.. only blame myself too stupid,too soft heart,too easy drop into a big hole.. lol.. he know me is upset now.. but he donno what happen with me.. i think he also dont dare to ask me.. lol.. yea.. when can i wake up? only together with you i can really smile from heart.. really.. but good things always cant stay long with me..

my fen saw me sad.. he try to cheer me up.. play guitar and singging for me.. lol.. yea is funny.. =) because he like a joker got alot style sia. haha.. thank you Reiji.

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I MISS YOU!!!!

恋爱就像剪头发, 这种事不到最后不会知道结果的. 结果究竟能否令每人皆大欢喜,无人保证,但 一切都是自己的选择......

new new new...

Bought alot new things. change my mood? hmmmph.. i tink... stil same.. useless.. lol.. stil very down. its rainning.. rainning is very lonely for me.. always stay at home alone. think alot.. no more energy to let me move on.. feeling down and down.. would me return crazy like used..? nah i dont want become like that. always alone at home.. dont feel like eating,also dont feel like drink.. what only i got doing is reply ur msg.. lol.. funny.. i'm useless.. always lose to LOVE.

he asked go clubbing with him last nite. but i rejected. i didnt go,why? because i'm promised u i wont go clubbing le. but.. all i did u also never know.. i try my best already.. but seem useless.. yea is me useless.. i not good enough for u. always hurt herself one girl.. whose want..? lol..

from now..

hmmmph.. later i need go office to settle all documents that to cancell my work permit now.. yea from now i no more work permit,without work permit i cant anyhow going out le.. from now need stress about new job,somemore is end of the year,this perioud very hard to find job. lol.. funny sia.. my manager really best,choose tis perioud to sack me. never think of me.. but world now all like that,all selfish one. ya i'm selfish too.. i'm only hope that can staying with u. i never ask much.. but God.. why u treat me bad..? yes you give me alot choice,but you know? ALL hurt me!! i hate u.. if can just bring me go away.. i asked so much time already.. why you never do it? or you want me go find u by myself..? ........

yes gal

JIA YOU..

yea shopping..

yes shopping.. lol.. bought one new wallet.. because when i bought you coffee this morning,that with me almost four years one wallet broken already.. lol.. maybe was the wallet gave me one bad alert already but i still donno. LOL.. hmmmph.. just now bought new bikini.. pink color.. very sweet. =) one dress.. one short also.. AND.!! two bra.. wahaha.. yea also got bought sampoo.. spend alot today. why? donno.. lol.. i seldom shopping and buy things one. maybe toooooo happy le.. buy something.. hmmph.. =p what a pose.. LOL.

i'm fine..

just now meet him up.. he saw me unhappy face,asked me:"what's going on with u?" nah nothing.. i tried to smile with him.. how i know..? u told me.. u will be waiting for me,i'm worth to waiting for.. so.. how i'm very tired yesterday.. i cried before i going meet u up.. but i never show out,because i'm just only wanna to see u. but maybe guys all like that,time long le then feel sian already. maybe your heart still got others girl. but i cant go guess anything. no point.. i also cant say anything.. cant save anything.. i told you,you mean alot to me that mean you really mean alot to me.. then you asked me got more than i mean alot to you or not. how i know..? u told me.. i'm the world for you.. lol.. i think all these doesnt mean anything for me anymore.. cos all these.. really too far.. too far.. untill i donno how to catch it.. grab it.. i will try to cheer myself up.. but really hard. all happened came too suddenly.. really too suddenly.. maybe i need to change myself.. become a stone..? haha.. funny.. i'm fine.. i really fine.. used to it already.. really nothing much.. really..

two month..

I give myself two more month time to find one new job here.. if whithin two month i still cant find new job,i will back hometown and wont come back anymore.. i thought of after left this job then back hometown already. but was u.. u asked me dont left u alone here.. then i just still staying at here untill now,and trying to find new job.. but now,suddenly everything changed,i dont know how long stil can i take it..

stupid..

now then i know.. u not really serious with me. i really upset.. since you cant give me any promise.. why u want me to left him and go with you..? i'm tired already.. i cant receive any hurt anymore.. can i just dont want left anything..? can i just just left this world.. god.. let me go.. i just dont wan stay in this world that bring me too much sadness.. too much hurt.. i always tell myself, i wont cry.. but my heart bleeding.. and crying.. whose know..? nvm.. i used to it already.. pain..? no more pain.. wont feel pain anymore.. =)

beach.